dreams

first of all before i describe my dream.

ive read andys blog and i sympathize with you.

join the club =[. ive got 700 plus to pay off and andys got 550 now. T__T.

truly we are meant to be.

ne way my dream.

i dreamed a dream. where

dress mart was 7 stories high it was flash.

and on the bottom floor was a study room just like archi block / oggb mixed together real pro like.

and then a earth quake hit. it was like 6 on the rictor scale .

i was working and everything just went to shit.

and as everyone grabbed something so they wouldnt fall down shit kept falling over and what not and the shock of the earthquake left people wounded and dying cus they fell off the 7 story building.

some how i survived but like the dip shit in dreams that i am

i took the elevator down.

-__-;;.

so as i got to the 5th floor the elevator goes *boom* and stops and the people inside with me are like wtf?

so we pry open the doors and theres a gap where i squeeze through and get out

but the people are like meh and keep going down.

they die cus the elevator falls to the ground. -__-;;;.

then as i get to the ground floor i see songmin. i was like O__o?

why are you here? and she said to come get you.

soooo we went outside and everywhere you see its like a person with bad acne cept made out of pieces of the city.

(dress mart was in the city)

but as wel got out i had a brilliant idea like the maori that i am.

so i decided to go back into dressmart and steal shit;;;

so somehow me and sm made it to the 7th floor but when we got there another earth quake shook us and we fully gapped it down 7 flight or stairs to run.

amazingly the building didnt crumble or fall. good dress mart.

sooooooooo then we met up with everyone else somehow... duno how tele kinesis?

and we roamed the city and after a while had the brilliant idea of studying. . .

so we went back into dressmart which had a oggb/archi mix up which was really cool. all high techie and shit.

and then i suddenly had this brilliantly retarded idea that somehow this was a secret base of operations for the government................................... yes... i know. ;;;

so we all somehow infiltrated into a lower floor which had all this high tech surveilance shit but we were all so ninja.

and then we were looking around and then got seen chased around for a little bit before i woke up. .

i left out some parts thats not to be seen by the eyes of all my innocent friends.

=].

fml

fuck my life.

fuck all this paper work that i have to do.

fuck all this drama.

fuck all the swirly bits of information and emotion swirling in my head.

fuck it all.

recently

i wake up at 7. go to school by 8 - 8 30 ish.

come home around 5 ish avg.

sleep till 7 ish?

then head to city to catch pokemon and study.

come home around 12? 1? ish.

prob later usually.

and then the cycle repeats it self for 5 days. -__-;;

i wouldnt mind if it was just studying and catching pokemon,

but the practicum part of things pisses me off.

i mean, most of the teachers are complete bitches.

there are the odd good ones that are totally chilled out,

but yes. most of them are bitches.

so.

ive been thinking,

and i think im going to change , my profession.

kinda?

ive been thinking about being a high school teacher recently, and i dont think its a bad idea.

just that id have to major in something, maybee... english? bio?

not that i excel in those subjects but.. uni is a place of learning right?

sigh.

i just wish everyone could fast foward one month, or all coma out for a month, then exams would be over and we would all wake up together. and it would be about 2 months of relaxation. =].

but some wishes never come true. . .

get up get up

mani jollina boda uri dulli :(
junhwa het nundae gesok anbatnaeeeee
i want u 2 sleep more
bt i hav 2 wake u up ..
u got lesson plans to finish..
ullun il uh naya haltendae..

musen ggum ggugo it ulgga, '-'
onul mot bwat nunde
jal jinet get ji?

onul junhwa rang munja mani mot boneso miann
graedo nuh seng gak mani het uh~
jinjja ya~

some days.

you just want to sleep and never wake up.

to rest till the fatigue that drips from every pore in your body

vanishes.

today is one of those days.

been at practicum for all of 2 weeks total . and im buggered.

the time that you have to wake up and stay behind till is . . . .

a bit too much.

and plus from i only have a dodde left. at home.

so once i have that.

i become

smoke free.

till i lose a fixed amount of weight.

fuck my life.

supposed to be studying atm.

have been for a while but ffs. cant be bothered ne more.

-__-.

endless rants will go on if i do not stop here.

so i shall stop.

i think we are two weeks today. =].

time flies i think lol.

but today im too tired to do much;;;

been cranky for no reason and tired beyond the land of far far away.

so. i shall see how much work i can get done this weekend for my mondays...

lesson plan.....

whoop. aja. ~_~;;

the calm

if you look back at things in life.

you realise that some things

should just be

ignored? adjusted to?

because they matter so little,

insignificant. is the word i was looking for.

other things matter more in life.

things like

happiness.

life.

living it.

so . . . .

=]. pikachu ije him duro haji malgo. mian haji malgo. gamgi do golijimal gooooo,
nom o ji ji do mal gooo ! joun il man happening hagil bare nu hanten =].

urin inje happy hage jinendago hetjana =].

image jugi ji? zzzz bogoshipo imma ~

for the first time in a long time.

my mind has turned blank with anger.

its something you cant put into words when

your anger exceeds your want to be reasonable.

for the sake of those around me

im not acting upon my anger.

but if it becomes worse then it is now.

i dont know what will happen.

i pray that nothing does. but its not something i can control.

for every minute you are angry. you lose sixty seconds of happiness.

im sorry.

ill try not to be angry for your sake.

ill try.

day two. =]

caught me a pikachu on sunday =].

but she needs to finish her essay by 2morow.

good luck bumm

pokemon

i gotta catch that elusive pikachu